I really am not intending to stop writing and posting on this blog. Still it's been two weeks since I've managed to write a complete post. I've started several others, but somehow they just aren't coming together. Early on in the Musings, I did alert everyone to the fact that I can only write on some days, not all. Some days I just cannot put a sentence together, much less paragraphs! I have to have the motivation to write. In this case, motivation means having something I find interesting or feel strongly about...and those kinds of days don't seem to be coming along as regularly as they used to!
Part of the problem right now is that there really is not much going on in my life. The fact of the matter is that I just "Don't Get Around Much Anymore." In fact, it's been deadly quiet and boring.
I've had another setback in my theater efforts (again!) and that has really depressed me. Also that means I'm not involved in anything having to do with theater right now. And to be honest, I am running out of time. Who knows how long I will stay healthy and energetic enough to take on the responsibility for a show. If I'm not getting the opportunities I wish for, it means that there is that much less in the way of possibilities.
And I appear to have no other interests! How annoying. My darling daughter pretty regularly lets me know about different activities and events she thinks I might enjoy. I appreciate her efforts but somehow I never manage to actually do any of them.
Well, I am still reading a lot, but that's not very interesting to write about. My reading material is pretty much all, light-hearted and and predictable, but most "good" books just don't hold my interests anymore.
The Big Guy is working all the time, (six days a week 3 to 11:30 pm) so my days are left to my own devices and I am the least self motivated person I know. I'm not what you call a self-starter, I never have been! Give me an assignment and I will jump on it, but left up to me, I just don't have any interest in doing much besides sitting at the computer. And we all know how productive that is! HA! Besides if I'm not doing anything, there really isn't anything to say!
Basically, I think I am just plain bored and there is nothing more conducive to depression than a boring and un-motivated life. I am a slug. Bleech!
Maybe tomorrow will be a better day....or the next day....